Heartbroken....

I have been feeling very down these few days.

Been arguing with him very often for the past 2 weeks. Everytime we argue the feeling is like... I don't know how to describe it. It's as though someone had used something to pierce through my heart. I just feel so heartbroken.

The tears just roll down my cheek as though their free. Well, they're free anyway. I really couldn't hold back my tears. And i guess i had never cried so much in my life at one go before.

We just had a long talk... And now he is sleeping and i am here blogging because i don't know who to talk to. I have no one to talk to about my problems. I have to keep them all to myself, i feel so awful, as though i am being bullied big time.

I wished that i had not said anything to him. I would rather keep them to myself like i always do.

I want to type a very long entry but no words can describe my feeling now. Loss of words.

Does he knows that i really love him alot? Or he thinks that i don't love him that much like he always say?

I don't know.......